dimanche 16 juin 2013

Tout Seul

“To make the right choices in life, you have to get in touch with your soul. To do this, you need to experience solitude, which most people are afraid of, because in the silence you hear the truth and know the solutions.” –Deepak Chopra

Well, I certainly hope this is the last time that I will be tempted to complain about spending so much time alone. Still, I’m going to try very hard to make this as “un-complaining” as possible. First positive thing, since last Sunday, there hasn’t been a big enough cloud in the sky to even threaten a drop of rain. It has been sunny and breezy and beautiful all week and weekend long, so that is a definite plus. As you know, by Friday, everyone that I know in Montpellier (a whopping 4 people) was out of town and I was left to make the most of this foreign and enchanting (not so little) town all on my own. There is some benefit to having the days all to myself: there is certainly no one to complain of being bored or hungry or tired and no one to argue with about what I should do next or where I should go next. And being the stubborn and insistent individual that I am, there is always some benefit to that. However, I am also someone who measures the value of a moment by how much it strengthened an existing relationship of mine or whether or not it caused a new relationship to bloom. That’s not to say that I don’t think my time here has not been valuable, it most certainly has, however, I think the memories would be more valuable if I was making them alongside someone else. Yet, since this is something I cannot change now, I digress.

Friday:
By the end of Thursday, I had finished most of the work that I was given so I didn’t have much to take care of on Friday. By noon, I was ready to go adventuring and so I headed off to the zoo which is conveniently located five bus stops away from where I live (and one past where I work). Montpellier’s zoo is the only free zoo that I know of besides Saint Louis zoo. That is about the only similarity they share, however. The zoo consisted of five different paths that I could follow, but I didn’t quite understand which one took me where and I also could not really follow what the signs were trying to tell me. So I decided to just wander around until I stumbled upon some animals. Unlike the zoos I’ve been to in the U.S., this zoo consisted of a few paved paths and  many more unpaved paths that were frequently sided on both sides by a dense row of trees and often extended for quite some time with nothing but forest on both sides and no animals enclosures to be seen. Then suddenly there would be a break in the trees and some random animal exhibit would be to one side and the path would split into two or three different ways and I would be forced to make a completely uneducated decision as to which path was best to take because, quite frankly, I didn’t know where any of them was going to lead me. I should have bought a few baguettes before arriving so that I could have left myself a trail of crumbs. 

I still enjoyed just strolling around in the pretty greenery and breathing the fresh, warm air. Eventually I stumbled across a map in the middle of giraffes and zebras exhibit and somewhat figured out the method to the madness so that I could at least tell where I had already been and in what general direction I wanted to head next. There really were not an extraordinary amount of animals, but they were so spread out that it took me quite a while to find them all. The zoo did seem to reinvent their natural habitats quite well though which I appreciated, even if it meant that I could only catch a few glimpses of the gazelles because they were in an enclosure with very tall grass. I wandered until I was tired, slightly sunburnt, and definitely dehydrated which ended up being on the better part of two hours and then headed back to the bus stop.

Instead of going home though (since it was only about  3 O’clock) I decided to head into the city center to see what was going on, but when I got to the city center, I decided to keep going until I ended up back and Antigone where Marion had taken me on my first full day here. It was much prettier this time around because it was not windy, rainy, and cold. Instead it was extremely bright, rather warm, and breezy when I could find a shady area. Antigone is a very, very beautiful, ornate business/residential district that I believe is a bit on the newer side. The walk from the tram station/mall area to the river (a straight shot) is kind of majestic. The gigantic walk way is surrounded on both sides by huge rosy colored buildings; some apartments, some offices, the bottom floor of which are almost all shops, restaurants, or cafes. There are a few archways throughout the walk that give me the sensation of being in ancient Greece. The walk ends at a large river with a beautiful view of even more beautiful buildings lining the other side along with the option to sit and eat at any number of riverside cafes and restaurants. I took some nice pictures and then decided to head back toward the center of the walk where there were more places to sit and eat. 

I chose a little restaurant with outdoor seating named “La Grange aux Crêpes” and attempted to ask the man inside if I should sit anywhere outside, but forgot the word for “to sit” in French and ended up asking in English. Fortunately he understood and indicated that I should. Outside there were no more than ten small tables with chairs arranged under a nice little awning that offered some welcomed shade (my sunburn was getting pretty intense by this point). My “waiter” (the man I spoke with inside and also the owner of the restaurant) came out with my menu. He was a short, plump, jolly old man with a big belly and a smile and laugh to match. We exchanged a few short words in French and he even had the patience to listen to me order in French. And I, to my shock and surprise, understood what he was saying to me as well! I ordered one of their “galettes” which was somewhat like a savory crêpe and every bit as tasty J along with a cider! I finished off the whole thing (it was pretty big) since I hadn’t eaten since nine or so that morning. When he came back and asked if I was finished, he picked up the plate and looked underneath as if I may have hiding some of my food underneath..haha..like I would ever do anything but eat every last bit of a crêpe!!!
Then as I was sitting there just relaxing and enjoying my people watching, he came back out and began making small talk with me (in French). And to my shock and surprise once again, I was able to not only understand, but I was also able to respond. 

And so began the absolute NUMBER ONE highlight of my ENTIRE first week!!!! We chatted for ten or so minutes in French and he went back in. Then a few minutes later he came back out again and gave a little business card with a small map on the back to show their location (I had said I would recommend the restaurant to any of my friends). He explained the setup of the buildings to me as well—the area is arranged so that it looks like a key if you are up in the sky looking down on it. When I told him that I loved the food and would definitely be coming back, he went back inside and came out with a “fidelity card” that will get me a free crêpe if I eat there six more times—not at all out of the question!  And then, he sat down at one of the tables at we chatted some more. After a while, his son (probably in his 30s came out) and joined in the conversation and eventually his wife (also the cook) came out and joined in too. Since I was the only one left at the restaurant and technically lunch serving hours were over, they all sat down and we talked (ALL IN FRENCH!!) for over an hour. 

They were soooo friendly, and the husband and wife were absolutely hilarious. They would bicker and joke and poke fun at each other and I absolutely loved it. We talked about Montpellier, where they were from in the North of France, the United States, my studies and my research, and even me being homesick. I honestly think it was the most I have enjoyed myself since I’ve been here. They were all so patient when I was speaking and couldn’t think of a word and they were able to speak slow enough that I could understand—It is still very hard for me to understand French when it is spoken at their normal pace. And for the first time I wasn’t nervous or self-conscious about not being able to speak fluent French. I could tell that they didn’t really understand any English and that they thoroughly appreciated any attempts that I made at speaking French. It was such a fun and encouraging experience and not one that I will ever forget. As I said at the beginning, my most valuable memories are the ones in which I’m forming or strengthening relationships with others!!!

I honestly don’t remember what I did for the rest of that day. I’m pretty sure it just consisted of going home and making dinner—my new version of bruschetta which I actually enjoy quite a lot,—talking to my mom on the phone, and reading a book. Unfortunately I don’t feel comfortable going out to bars or anything after dark by myself yet. Those are the scenarios that always play out really badly in my head so I don’t frequently dare take a chance to see how they might actually go. 

Saturday I had the temporary delight of finding out that a girl that I went to grade school with is actually in Montpellier right now as well. I got in touch with her on facebook and she said that she and her friends were going to the beach a little later on and I could meet them and go with her. Since I was getting ready to head into the grocery store to pick up some food, she said she would meet me at the McDonalds in the city center in about an hour. Which would have been the perfect amount of time had I been heading to the correct McDonalds, or if I hadn’t gotten lost on the way to the wrong McDonalds, but considering both of those things did, in fact, happen, I ended up getting to the wrong McDonalds 45 minutes late after they had already left for the beach L Since we were communicating only over facebook, we needed wifi to keep in touch, and since I did not have wifi while I was lost, and she did not have wifi after she left for the beach, I was left to spend the rest of the day, once again, on my own in the city center. The good news is, now I know that she is in Montpellier for the next month and a half, and should be able to meet up with her and her friends from time to time...yay for company! 

Fortunately Saturday there was a big festival going on in the city center, and I was able to walk around and look at different booths of all of Montpellier’s different sister cities—one of them being Louisville!! It was quite comforting to see pictures of Louisville’s skyline, and Churchill Downs, and Mint Juleps, and the Louisville Cardinal and so on and so on. I walked around the festival for a while and ate some food from one of the stands, and then I decided to go back towards the area I had gotten lost in earlier, because I had seen some pretty buildings, but I hadn’t been able to enjoy them due to my frenzied rush to find the incorrect McDonalds. I walked and walked and walked for pretty much the entire day. Into random alleys with adorable little shops and cafes. Around the city center where there were various dance groups and musicians performing. Through the festival’s tents and crowds. Past large pristine churches and historic buildings. Under the Arc de Triomphe glimmering gold in the sun. Up to the ancient aquaduct spanning well out of my view into the gigantic hills in the distance. And then, I walked back. I probably could have taken a bus or a tram back to the city center, but I figured there was really nothing better for me to do once I was back, so I decided to enjoy the sights that came with walking.

Before I headed back home, I stopped in the grocery to buy myself a bottle of wine. I may not have any body to keep me company, but I figured a nice bottle would be better than no company at all ;) I bought a wine that was made in the region and actually bears the same name as the road I live on—Pic Saint Loup—just to be as “festive” as possible. And then I returned home to make myself some dinner, drink myself some wine, and read myself a book. It’s sort of ironic that all school year long, all I wish for is one weekend where I can do exactly what I just explained, but once I’m doing it, it’s not nearly as enjoyable as I would have imagined. Although, I do think that if I were to add in one other individual that I was even remotely fond of, my outlook would be quite different. Claire and Peter arrived late Saturday night and, being exhausted from a day of travel, went off to bed fairly quickly.

Today there was really nothing of significance to report other than that I read an entire book and watched wayyy to many youtube videos. Oh, but I did get to facetime my family and wish my dad a Happy Father’s Day “face to face”!! That was absolutely great, despite the fact that it made me sickeningly homesick. I thought hearing their voices on the phone was bad…seeing their faces is even worse. I know that things will get better, because they always do. Every trip has been the same. I am homesick beyond almost any consolation for the first few days; the first week or so I am lonely and unhappy, but at least I am able to get myself out and moving as a distraction; usually through the second week, going home early doesn’t sound so terrible, and I start to make a calendar to count down the days; then somewhere in the third week, things start looking up and I start really getting used to everything; and by the end, I find it hard to say goodbye to the places and people I’ve grown to know and love. I know this from the start, and I tell myself this every day. But patience has never EVER been my strong suit, and so the first two weeks are still absolute torture.
Hopefully with work starting again tomorrow and Claire and Peter being back home for some extended amount of time, and my connection with another girl in town, though, things will start to come together for me soon!! My fingers are crossed!
“Nothing ever goes away until it has
taught us what we need to know.” –Pema Chodron


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